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  I was born in China, a country with the largest population in the world, yet I grew up feeling invisible and cut off. I numbed myself through years of cultural oppression and constant abrupt separations from my family. Every cell of my body remembers the devastation of an isolated, diminished life and the agony of being “the best robot”, trained only to obey and serve. Outside, I appeared to be living. Inside, I was dying like a withering flower bud that never got a chance to blossom.

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  Fortunately, my hunger for life evoked these two questions in me: What keeps us small and silenced? And what awakens life and makes it meaningful? In the asking and listening to these two questions, I walked through many unfamiliar terrains of self-discovery. Inevitably, I had many times the sense of falling on my face, crashing into walls, and getting burned into ashes. Damn! No one told me it would be that hard. However, I knew I’d never go back to un-live my life again. Teachers in many different forms have come to show me the way, share their gifts, and guide my path. I’m constantly reminded to stay open to the mystery and the unknown as they bring the greatest teachings.

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  The yearning for home is the calling of home. The scream of wanting to be alive is the voice of life. When I ignored the calling, I was trapped in suffering. When I began to listen and let the calling guide me, I woke up to the life inside of me.